Why I Detransitioned
Puberty blockers stunt brain growth, hormones shorten life, and kids are left with irreversible scars and regret. This isn’t care—it’s medical harm dressed as compassion.
Επισκόπηση
Exulansic, a former trans-identifying UC Berkeley student, explains how childhood trauma and gender ideology nearly led her to medical transition, and how a non-gender therapist helped her avoid irreversible harm. She now warns that puberty blockers, cross-sex hormones and surgeries are experimental, carry severe lifelong risks, and are being pushed on vulnerable youth—especially autistic kids—by a mix of ideology, financial incentives and fetishistic interests.
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Exulansic, the detransitioner interviewed on Trigonometry, explains that she spent four years identifying as trans while studying at UC Berkeley, where she majored in gender and women’s studies and was steeped in what she calls “gender ideology.” She traces her initial discomfort with her female body and social role back to early-childhood trauma and a sense of alienation, an explanation that crystallized once she reached the highly gender-ideological environment of college. Although many of her friends began medical transition, she herself never took testosterone or underwent surgery; she credits a non-“gender” therapist who encouraged her to talk through the likely medical outcomes rather than pushing her toward hormones. That therapeutic relationship, she says, helped her realize that further medical steps would “introduce so much unpredictable horror” into her life. Professionally, Exulansic now works as a speech-language pathologist specializing in pronoun disorders and traumatic brain injury, experience that informs her critique of current pronoun policies and of the medical transition model. Drawing on both personal observation and clinical knowledge, she argues that interventions such as puberty blockers and cross-sex hormones are “extremely experimental,” aimed at creating appearance and function where none naturally exists rather than restoring health. She details how drugs like Lupron disrupt the pulsatile release of hormones essential for brain and bone development, likening their effect to “putting the brain in a dark room so it can’t grow.” She also cites long-term risks—early osteoporosis, cardiovascular damage, and possible hypothalamic injury that can produce disordered eating—arguing that these known sequelae are being trivialized or ignored. Exulansic frames gender dysphoria itself as a mental illness rooted in distress, trauma, or comorbid conditions such as autism, and she contends that the current “affirmation-only” approach denies patients a full range of therapeutic options. She describes detransitioners she has encountered as carrying deep regret over irreversible voice changes, mastectomy scars, and genital damage, often reporting that no one warned them of the permanence of these effects. She attributes the rapid mainstreaming of pediatric transition to a moral panic reminiscent of the Satanic panic of the 1980s, propelled by social-media contagion, financial incentives, and what she sees as a small but influential group of fetishists who have “captured” medical institutions. While acknowledging that some adults report satisfaction after transition, she suggests placebo effects, community pressure, and the drugs’ direct psychotropic impact may explain those outcomes, and she insists that less destructive treatment avenues should be explored first.