Après de multiples opérations, Karlee alerte sur les dangers des transitions sexuelles
I woke from vaginoplasty joking with nurses, but hours later I was crying and suicidal. Now I’m sterile, sexless, and destroyed, and the community that cheered me on sends death threats when I tell the truth.
Overview
Karlee recounts beginning his medical transition at 17 after a traumatic childhood and inadequate psychological screening, undergoing years of hormones, breast augmentation, facial feminization, and vaginoplasty by age 30. He describes waking from genital surgery with immediate regret, losing all sexual function, suffering permanent physical complications and osteoporosis, attempting suicide multiple times, and now living in social isolation while facing death threats for speaking out. He urges the restoration of mandatory, in-depth psychological and psychiatric follow-up to prevent others from reaching the same irreversible point.
Full Video Summary
Karlee, a pseudonym, was born male and began his medical transition at 17 after growing up in a dysfunctional, loveless family with unaddressed childhood trauma. He had recognized his homosexuality early but felt intense shame. He discovered gender transition through online content and a boyfriend who showed him a documentary, then visited a family planning center that referred him to an endocrinologist. The endocrinologist diagnosed him with gender dysphoria and directed him to a psychologist for the then-mandatory two-year assessment, but the therapist was untrained, never explored his childhood trauma, and readily approved him for hormones. Karlee started high-dose testosterone blockers without estrogen for a year, leaving him hormonally depleted and severely depressed. After beginning estrogen, he underwent breast augmentation using expander implants that were inflated weekly via syringe through the nipple, followed by a second operation for permanent implants. His boyfriend left him during this time, and he moved to a shelter in Lyon to access France’s main gender surgery team. There, he underwent extensive facial feminization that included far more procedures than he had requested—nose, cheekbones, chin, jaw, eyebrow ridges, under-eye work, and a facelift—costing roughly €20,000, much of it covered by insurance, though he paid €8,000 in undeclared cash for some work. The surgeries left him with worsened under-eye circles, visible scars, and a failed facelift. He then pursued vaginoplasty, skipping the official waiting list and reflection period when a secretary offered him an urgent COVID-era slot and instructed him to falsify paperwork. The surgeon assured him that gynecologists would not notice a difference and compared his future sterility to that of infertile women. Immediately after surgery he felt elation, but within hours he was overwhelmed by regret, panic, and despair. A nurse told him many trans patients express regret upon waking, which made him realize he had crossed an irreversible line. He abandoned dilation after a month and a half because he had lost all libido and found the process repulsive. Today he lives with constant foul-smelling discharge, osteoporosis from years without hormones, and diagnoses of borderline personality disorder, chronic depression, social anxiety, and identity disorder. He has attempted suicide multiple times and has sought assisted suicide in Belgium. Now speaking publicly despite death threats, he calls for the restoration of rigorous, mandatory psychological and psychiatric follow-up before transition, and says he can no longer live as a man yet will never be a woman.