DETRANSITION VIDEO REUPLOADED (explanation video for later)
At 15½ I was given testosterone. At 20 I’m detransitioning with a neck beard, hair loss and deeper scars—mental and physical—than any doctor warned me about. Transition didn’t fix my pain, only added to it.
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MacKenzie Wells, who began testosterone at 15½ and is now 20, announces she is detransitioning after realising medical transition didn’t solve her depression, social isolation or childhood trauma. Four years of hormones have left her with irreversible hair loss, acne and regret, while draining her finances and relationships; she now urges others to confront underlying mental-health issues before pursuing gender medicine.
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MacKenzie Wells, a 20-year-old who began injecting testosterone at 15½, opens the video by apologizing for her appearance—neck-beard stubble, acne, and a generally disheveled state—then explains that she is now choosing to detransition. She identifies herself as “a female male transsexual” who never underwent surgery, although she had been planning to, and says she is recording this “explanation video” because she has been seeing a surge of detransition content and wants to add her own story. Four years on testosterone have left her with irreversible changes—hair loss, greasy skin, and acne on her back and chest—that she hopes may partially reverse once she stops. She frames the decision as the culmination of a long process in which she has come to see transition as “a mistake.” Wells traces her original motivation to a mix of longstanding masculine self-concept, social isolation, and unresolved childhood trauma. She describes herself as having “always had more of a masculine energy,” but also recounts severe social problems, family dysfunction, and the death of her brother only four days after she started testosterone. These stressors, she now believes, fed into a belief that medical transition would solve her distress. She recalls hating menstruation, hips, breasts, and the idea of pregnancy—“the back of the dick and go inside … fuck man”—but says that hatred has subsided and she no longer feels the same bodily revulsion. Transition, she concludes, “doesn’t really solve any of your problems; it just adds on more pancakes to the already over-stacked pile.” She lists a constellation of comorbid mental-health issues—clinical depression, anxiety, OCD, possible ADHD, and autism—that she says are common among people who transition, arguing that these conditions can masquerade as gender dysphoria. Wells suggests that neurodevelopmental and psychiatric factors can make girls feel unable to meet feminine beauty standards or to connect with female peers, leading them to interpret that alienation as proof they are “really” male. In her own case, growing up with minimal feminine influence at home and alongside a disabled sibling who was “treated differently” reinforced her sense of not belonging in girlhood. Transition, she says, drained her bank account, complicated friendships and dating, and ultimately left her more isolated. Although she still feels “an inner man,” Wells has decided to stop testosterone and attempt to “readjust as female,” even though she worries she never learned “how to be feminine.” She invites other detransitioners to share their experiences and coping strategies, promising that this video is only the first in a series. Visibly depressed and struggling to piece her thoughts together, she ends by acknowledging how frightening the next steps are, but expresses a tentative hope that going off hormones will clarify whether her dysphoria was a symptom of deeper issues rather than a standalone condition requiring medical intervention.