Detrans: before and after switching teams
T for just 1 yr, no surgery, still left me masking my emotions, losing female friends & facing new harassment as I tried to find my way back to myself. Transition isn’t harmless—there’s real fallout.
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Adaisy, who lived as a trans man for four years and took testosterone for one, now detransitioned and reflects on how hormones and passing reshaped her friendships, safety, and self-expression. She describes trading emotional openness for a “cool manly” mask, losing female friendships, and having to relearn womanhood while facing cat-calling, harassment, and social awkwardness from former male friends.
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In this vlog, adaisy—who recently detransitioned—gives a candid, hour-long reflection on what it felt like to live four years as a trans man and then re-enter life as a woman this year. She begins by celebrating her return from Florida, her cat Pepper, and the milestone of 1 000 subscribers, then dives into the social side of her transition history: born female, identifying as a trans man for four years, taking testosterone for one year (no surgeries), and then deciding to “switch teams” back to living as a biological girl. Daisy describes how, before medical transition, she gravitated toward male or gender-questioning friend groups because she “didn’t fit in” with girls; once on testosterone she passed well at 5'9½" and found herself welcomed into cis-male circles where she was spoken to more sternly, expected to suppress emotions, and largely shielded from the male gaze. She recalls masking parts of her personality to fit a “cool chill manly stereotype,” realizing only later how much of her natural expressiveness she had traded for pronouns. Detransitioning, she says, has been like “three Pokémon evolutions”: pre-T girl, trans guy, and now “final evolution” woman. The switch flipped many social dynamics overnight. Male friends who once treated her “like one of the guys” now act awkward; she feels caught between male and female friend groups, re-learning how to bond with women after years without a close female best friend. Safety concerns returned—she no longer feels comfortable on late-night walks and was recently harassed by two male acquaintances she invited over to play Mario Kart. She also notices fresh experiences of cat-calling, unwanted compliments from customers at her cashier job, and mechanics suddenly explaining car repairs “very slowly.” At the same time, she feels newly confident, “fun instead of quiet,” and enjoys experimenting with women’s swimsuits and style after years of dressing to pass as male. Daisy acknowledges the emotional cost of leaving trans spaces: some trans and non-binary friends drifted away, including a trans male best friend who ended their friendship after her detransition. Yet she emphasizes that her family and remaining friends have supported her throughout, with one friend remarking this is the happiest he’s ever seen her. She closes by noting that her driver’s license still carries her trans name, causing awkward TSA moments, and invites viewers to ask questions in the comments, grateful for the growing audience willing to listen to her ongoing journey.